reflections

A void, moments of silence. In the crowd, by the window. Loneliness. Cloudy, hazy expanse. Serenity of a white landscape. Faces unknown. All hues of life, black- grey- crimson Neurons ablaze! vague silhouettes. Gaze, sans expression. Oblivion "what?" "nothing"

The tree shed them all. Leaves, yellowed. Flowers, withering. They were a part of him. Was it easy? Tampered upon, the flowers but smiled, and the leaves joined in, pale, living their last. Sacrifice it was Of love.  The tree wept each time. But their lives ended to give life. On and on.. And the flowers smiled.

Putting hours of your life, and a part of yourself, you use the celluloid, to fill an unknown void. Sentiments, feelings amass with infinite promises days pass. Dusk to dawn it deepens. Beautiful days, sweet dreams. The moon shines like never before and life's magic! Until, expectations set in. Virtuality no longer appeals. You long for an affectionate touch, that look in the eyes, a smile, a few words. Imagination sets in. Castles in the air you build, dreaming for a perfect life, with a person as beautiful. Unaware you. The emotional you. The real, humanly you. Reality pushes itself hard. Expectations shatter. Dreams shatter. A part of you is still hopeful, more of unaware. A truth so ugly, hard to believe. Hopes shatter. Devastated and distressful, you stand all alone. A broken heart. A nightmarish encounter. VIRTUALITY

Finding a way, looking for answers within. Lost. Thoughts, memories of past, plans for future. Work, no work. Dark. In search of light.. A tiff, between the heart and mind. Expectations and dreams. The world outside, a bigger one inside. An ocean,  leaping and swelling. Thought, no thought. Calm. A sudden tide, restlessness. Sleep, no sleep. An effort to fit in , a desire to stand out. War. In search of peace.